I hope i can Remember....

OK SO power to the strength of a good quote to help you on days that just don't look bright. And as it says, today, i pray there is peace within my heart.....

''May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others...May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are.. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.''

HaPpY BiRtHdAy Grandma!!!

Today is my grandma's birthday! She would be 77. In November of this year it will be 8 years since she has passed away. My grandma was one of my favorite people in the whole world. I would go and stay the weekend with her every weekend growing up. We made a deal, I would watch 20/20 with her, if she would watch TGIF with me.. That was when they had cool shows on Friday night, like "Boy Meets World" and "Full House" I think she really liked watching the shows too, but she always said it was for "me". She even named her dog PANGA after Tapanga on "Boy Meets World" I always looked forward to spending time with her. She would always cook me yummy food, or take me to Wendy's her favorite place to go eat. Then Saturday Mornings I would help her clean her house and take care of her yard.

I still remember sitting in St George when my dad called to tell me she had died. I cried and cried, and cried. Then i insisted on driving home, even though it was snowing really really bad!! I can't believe that was 8 years ago. It seems like only yesterday that i was sitting with my grandma. I seriously love that woman. Because my dad was an only child, and his father passed away when he was young, we got to be so close to my grandma. She was very important in my life and i miss her like crazy!!

I LOVE YOU GRANDMA!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Ode to single life...

Ya know.... I have to admit, working in the field i do is hard when you are single... EVERYONE else is married, the other teachers, the parents of my students, the office staff, EVERYONE! and they all either have their own kids already,or are pregnant, or are trying to get pregnant. Which is fun! I love celebrating with my friends and seeing their new additions to their families. BUT it just reminds me how much fun it is to be 25 and single.... AND then lunch conversations turn to why i "choose" to stay single...COME ON PEOPLE!? Who really believes that someone would choose to be alone when everyone around them is married or attached to others??? I don't think anyone goes to a singles ward and says YAHOO i am single?! No way it is more like "Crap i am single lets match up here and get the heck out of this singles ward!!" or the other side of thoughts, "I am going to die alone!"

Anyway it definitely ISN'T Because I haven't been trying... I just have really crappy luck with relationships. Maybe i am looking for the wrong thing, or being too picky, or maybe i am just hard to get along with... I don't know. I have had several relationships last over a year, and then it just falls apart... time... after time.... and it makes me sad. I have even tried letting it go, and not stressing about it. Which does work for a little bit. It's just hard, especially when one relationship ends, and you thought it was different that time, it's hard to know what direction to go in next....

I have had to try super ultra hard to not let it get me down.... And most of the time i can celebrate life and just enjoy the state that i am in.. But i would be lying if i said that it isn't hard sometimes, When ultimately you want to be married and have a family too! PLUS Oh what joy it would be to leave the boy drama alone and know that that part of life has passed.

ANYWAY I really am Happy. Probably the most happy i have been in a very long time. I LOVE my job, I have lived in the same place for a year and a half now (Which is good for me!!!)and I love it! I love my ward, (which is VERY good because it's a singles ward and usually those are a no-go for me! So that's great!!!) I am in my last semester of my Masters Degree!!! which is Fabulous and life is just good.

SOOOOOO i will not frown on my single-hood. I will salute it and praise the situation i am in! THIS IS MY ODE TO SINGLE LIFE!!!!!!! Let the good times roll....

50 Books in One year.....Here's to my good year of Reading!

Well My friend Nicole told me about this goal she had to read 50 books in 2009.... I started a little bit later into the year, so i only made it to 40 dang... BUT i will finish the other 10 books soon. I am now reading my 41st book "The Endowment" Written by my brother in law's Brother. John A. Muhlestein. SO i will be able to add that to my list soon. I am sure if i counted all of the books i have had to read for school, and read to my students in school i would easily be at 50 or beyond... but i just counted at home reading and books of my choice...And i didn't think to write them down until half way into it so i may have missed some!! Anyway It is kinda funny to tell you what books i read, i feel like it exposes me... No judging based on my choices! haha Well there ya go! I love to read and am excited to keep reading fun new books! Here is my list: (Not in the order i read them)
1. Remember Me-Sophie Kinsella
2. Confessions of a Shopaholic- Sophie Kinsella
3. Shopaholic takes Manhattan- Sophie Kinsella
4. Shopaholic Ties the Knot- Sophie Kinsella
5. Shopaholic and Sister- Sophie Kinsella
6. Shopaholic and Baby- Sophie Kinsella
7. Can you keep a Secret?- Sophie Kinsella
8. The Undomestic Goddess- Sophie Kinsella
9. Dear John- Nicholas Sparks
10. 32 Third Graders and One class Bunny- Phillip Done
11. Twilight-Stephenie Meyer (Again)
12. New Moon- Stephenie Meyer (Again)
13. Eclipse- Stephenie Meyer (Again)
14. Breaking Dawn- Stephenie Meyer (Again)
15. Sisterhood of the Traveling pants 1 (Again)
16. Sisterhood of the Traveling pants 2 (Again)
17. Sisterhood of the Traveling pants 3 (Again)
18. Sisterhood of the Traveling pants 4 (Again)
19. Alone Together- Jack Weyland
20. Saving Kristen- Jack Weyland
21. Brianna, My Brother and the Blog- Jack Weyland
22. The Road less Traveled- M. Scott Peck M.D.
23. Keeping it together in a messed up world-Mary Ellen Edmunds
24. Fairest- Gail Carson Levine
25. Heartbeat- Sharon Creech
26. If I have a Wicked Stepmother, Where is My Prince?- Melissa Kantor
27. Left to tell- Immaculee Llibagiza
28. Broken Things to Mend- Jeffery R. Holland
29. Stop Whining Start Living- Dr. Laura Schlessinger
30. L.A. Candy- Lauren Conrad
31. Believing Christ- Stephen E. Robinson
32. Wicked- Gregory Maguire
33. Toss the Guild and Catch the Joy- Merrilee Boyack
34. Fablehaven- Brandon Mull
35. The 7 habits of Highly Effective People- Stephen R. Covey
36. Stick up for Yourself!- Gershen Kaufman
37. Speak Up and Get along!- Scott Cooper
38. How to Hug a Porcupine- Dr. John Lewis Lund
39. The Book Of Mormon
40. The Rescue- Nicholas Sparks