Happy Mothers Day!

I am not a mom, but as a teacher, sister, aunt, friend and daughter, I can only imagine how incredibly crazy, stressful, hard, fun and rewarding it must be! I know that there are millions of people looking out and working hard for their kids! Thanks for always being there! You really are the greatest! Happy Mothers Day!

American Idol

OK So i think Kris should win... I don't know if he will beat the much talked about Adam. blah blah blah But i just don't dig Adam. I think he is too dramatic. He is a good singer, but too rockin roll, screaming screeching, not so versatile. Kris is great! He can play the guitar amazingly, and can sing lots of different kinds of music. I have stuck with him as my pick the whole season! I really like him!

My top 3 have been Kris, Danny, and Allison.

I Do think Allison is still good too, and Danny is still REALLY good, he is pretty talented! I love him! He is my second pick.. So i don't know who will go home tonight, but I sure hope it is not Kris!! I would love to see Adam go home, but i highly doubt that will happen. I think it will be either Danny or Allison.... Neither of which will i be happy to see go, they are all really great! But i know they will do amazing things after the show is over....

Congratulations Kristen!!

One of my best friends Kristen and her husband Eric were sealed in the Temple today. What an awesome day! I am so proud of them for their choice, and am grateful that my family got to spend the evening with their family and friends celebrate their family's decision to go to the temple together. I know that this is something they have been working on and that they wanted to do together and i am happy that they made it there! I love them so much and look up to their example. I am glad that even though the road is dark and stormy they have held strong, and found their way back to the gospel, i hope that i can turn my life around and remember my faith too!

I love Soccer!!

Ok so my 4 year old Niece started to play soccer. Her first game was on Thursday and can i tell you that was the best experience EVER! There were little kids running after the ball, and some running away from the ball! Some kids wanted to stop and pick the ball up in the middle of the game, some kids did not want to touch the ball at all. One little boy on Ade's team scored a goal in the wrong goal. He was jumping up and down, he was so excited to score a goal, everyone cheered for him anyway.... There were some kids that i am pretty sure didn't know the rules to soccer, they would kick the ball out of bounds and it didn't matter they would just keep going kicking the ball all the way down the hill until finally someone got them to turn around to throw the ball back into play.

It was kinda silly, my niece had been counting down the days until "Soccer day" She loves watching soccer with her dad, or kicking the ball into her goal in their backyard. She even wanted to practice kicking the ball around before her game. Once we got to the field she was dribbling the ball all around and passing it back and forth with me, she was so excited. Once the game started and she got in to play, she froze. She was so scared she didn't even want to play. I think she will try again tomorrow, she was so excited! I got some pictures of her playing during the warm up and running around with her team anyway. It was still my favorite day ever! I loved it! I can't wait to go watch again tomorrow!

Go Blue Dolphins!

Positive Day Number One!

OK well first of all Yippee for me! I had a great day! The weather was nice, coulda been a little warmer, but i will take it! Then i had a day all about me! I figured after all the ups and downs and turn arounds that have been happening and with it being one of my last days off track before i go back to school on Friday, i decided it should be my day. I went and had Jodelle do my hair, which was super awesome cuz she is one of my favorite people in the world! So that makes it fun, she always makes me feel better and talks to me and totally understands my life and my situations, and who doesn't love having their hair cut and highlighted and styled? It was awesome! Very relaxing, then i went shopping with my sister. I bought a couple of pairs of new capris and a cute shirt to go with it! Then i bought some super cute flip flops that I added gems to make flowers on them they turned out way cute! SO i shopped and i crafted WHOA! Then i played some super fun games with my Sister and Brother in Law. Nothing beats a few rounds of Settlers of Catan, AND Ticket to Ride! It was great! I also got to play with my niece and my nephews they make me laugh i love those guys so much! Today was all about the smiles, being positive, doing what makes me happy, what i enjoy. I didn't talk to anyone that i didn't want to talk to, (Not to say they didn't call... i just didn't answer...) I was being selfish. I wanted to feel special and remember that i am important. I wanted to jump start my self-esteem and what better way to do it then to get my hair done and buy a cute out fit? I also ate good food and had good company! I couldn't have asked for a better day!!

I did do something for someone else today though too, I sent my mom flowers for an early mothers day thank you for all that she does! I thought i could share some light in her day too! Thanks mom for all you do! And thanks to all of you too, because i know that if you are reading this, you are probably one of the few that care to keep up to date with me and continue to support me. It is because of you that i can do what i do. I love the support and love i get from my friends and family. You guys are the best!

Cheers to being positive!

Welcome to my life!

My theme song for life totally! I love this song! music makes me happy!

When do you believe?

Ok so my recent dilemma is when do you believe what someone says, when they themselves don't follow through with it? I will 100% admit that i am sure that i am at fault of this as well, but if someone says something don't you want to have enough faith in human kind to believe them? i don't care if what they are saying is good or bad, or a promise that they will be somewhere or do something. If you say something.... FOLLOW THROUGH! I used to be so reliable. If i committed to do something, not only would i be there but i would be 5 minutes early!! I get that things come up and stuff happens, but that is different then just being a flake or holding out just in case "something better" comes along. But if you tell someone never to talk to you again.... why would you call them?? If before you'd never agree to do anything with them but as soon as it is over between you that's when you want to see them, why would you ask them to come over?? It's like words mean nothing...

I still try to be true to my word, but the one thing i can't seem to stick to is saying NO. I have a disease to please. My heart literally aches if i have to say No. i would rearrange my schedule if i could to help anyone out. i don't know why, it is such a driving force. It is kind of a poison in the same sense. Sometimes i need to remember to think of myself too and what i need. it's not always about everyone else.

Anyway my goal is to A: be true to my word, and if i say something i am sticking to it!! and B: Remember that it is ok to say No some of the time.. and it is ok to take care of myself and remember what i need or want too!