A Love Hate Relationship....

So I have a Love hate relationship with teaching Year Round School... I LOVE being off track and having my breaks 4 times a year instead of all together at once... BUT I HATE when it's time to go back to work after being off track. It messes with my head, and my heart!!! I get to relax and play, and enjoy things i just don't have time for while i am teaching. But then the time approaches to return to school (MONDAY to be exact) and a few days before, i get anxious, and i know the end is coming... And like today, I am slightly apprehensive for the return to school. I Know I know, once i get there and my kids come i will be FINE. But It's almost like that nervous first day of school feeling all over again. Except less intimidating cuz i already know my kids. I think i am just way NOT excited to get up that early again! And have to actually get really ready each day!! BUT i do love that i get breaks at different times of the year. It really is amazing. And i dont know if i would like having ALL summer off. I would probably end up getting a summer job or something and working my entire break...

Now i know some of you are thinking. WOW teaching, what an ideal schedule and work load. WELL rest assure, yes, i don't physically have to go into school. BUT i do still do work and projects when i am off track. And i stay late almost every day i am at school. So while officially i only work 9 to 10 months out of the year... I promise you i work 12 months out of the year and every thought I have is about school. I can't even go to the store without a thought creeping in like "OH i could definitely use that in my class!" Not to mention my financial investment into all the cool projects i create!

YES, It is official I do LOVE my job... But I also HATE that anxious feeling i get when i have to go back to work....

PS i am also super sad i only have nine weeks of school left and i have to say goodbye to my AMAZING class... and begin the worrying and anxiety of a new school year!! (That will only start 3 weeks after my goodbye!!) Oh the wondrous cycle of teaching!!! GOTTA love it!!

Are you serious!??! Off track time is ending again.... SO soon??

There ya go, The moment captured in essence! I did it! I made it through the graduation! YAHOO! And I did it with some of the best Friends!
But that also means that i am nearing the end of being off track. I have to tell you that being off track is the best thing in the world!! Nothing like being off track, reading books watching tv you have missed. Hanging with Friends you never get to see

 

And playing with my niece and nephews! Who i freaking LOVE!!!!

All and all it is great! Except the anxiety i feel just about now when i have only a couple days left and i know i have to be back on Friday and i start freaking out, and dreading waking up, and wondering if i am planned and ready (Even though i spend the first few days off (at least) every time i go off getting ready for when i go back! It's like the first day of school all over again anxiety wise! HA BUT then i get there and its back to normal like i never left!

Here's to the last few days of being off track!!

Positive Day Number One!

OK well first of all Yippee for me! I had a great day! The weather was nice, coulda been a little warmer, but i will take it! Then i had a day all about me! I figured after all the ups and downs and turn arounds that have been happening and with it being one of my last days off track before i go back to school on Friday, i decided it should be my day. I went and had Jodelle do my hair, which was super awesome cuz she is one of my favorite people in the world! So that makes it fun, she always makes me feel better and talks to me and totally understands my life and my situations, and who doesn't love having their hair cut and highlighted and styled? It was awesome! Very relaxing, then i went shopping with my sister. I bought a couple of pairs of new capris and a cute shirt to go with it! Then i bought some super cute flip flops that I added gems to make flowers on them they turned out way cute! SO i shopped and i crafted WHOA! Then i played some super fun games with my Sister and Brother in Law. Nothing beats a few rounds of Settlers of Catan, AND Ticket to Ride! It was great! I also got to play with my niece and my nephews they make me laugh i love those guys so much! Today was all about the smiles, being positive, doing what makes me happy, what i enjoy. I didn't talk to anyone that i didn't want to talk to, (Not to say they didn't call... i just didn't answer...) I was being selfish. I wanted to feel special and remember that i am important. I wanted to jump start my self-esteem and what better way to do it then to get my hair done and buy a cute out fit? I also ate good food and had good company! I couldn't have asked for a better day!!

I did do something for someone else today though too, I sent my mom flowers for an early mothers day thank you for all that she does! I thought i could share some light in her day too! Thanks mom for all you do! And thanks to all of you too, because i know that if you are reading this, you are probably one of the few that care to keep up to date with me and continue to support me. It is because of you that i can do what i do. I love the support and love i get from my friends and family. You guys are the best!

Cheers to being positive!

Amazing Weather!

Finally a gorgeous day!!! I can not believe how beautiful today was! Definitely the best time of the year...

You will be happy to know project "sleep in" has been glorious! Official day one of being off track and i finally got to sleep in! The weekend was rough my body wanted to get up before 8 and that was just NOT going to work for me! But after a glorious sunday nap and staying up super late last night, i successfully slept in today! Unfortunately I have to substitute for my friend Jessica tomorrow, so i am going to confuse my body again by getting up early and going to work!~ And the bad news, is i only get TWO weeks off this time so it is a short break, good news once i go back to school we only have 9 weeks left of school! This year has gone by so fast i can't believe it! Then it is on to 3rd grade!!

I have officially ran out of good books to read, anyone have any suggestions??

Pretty ok....

Turns out i had a pretty ok weekend! I got a lot more done than i thought i would, and even had some fun too! AND I am starting to feel a little better, so i think things are definitely looking up and are going to go ok.. PLUS only six more school days until we go off... can't argue with that!~!!

Only a few more days....

Ok so i have been off track for two weeks now, and i am now down to the last few days. I have tried to do all of the things i don't have time for when i am working. Like get my hair done, going to the dentist, getting a flu shot, visiting and meeting with friends, cleaning my house extra good, getting all my laundry done, organizing my closet, catching up on movies and tv shows, sleeping in once in awhile and reading tons and tons of books! And my favorite, spending lots of time with Ade and Gunnar and Brittany. It's so funny being off track. I feel like i get so much done, i even catch a few moments of boredom and sometimes i even think i am ready to go back... but as soon as time to go back gets closer i still get that anxious feeling i used to get as a kid when summer vacation was ending....Then i feel like there is so much i have to do before i go back... i just can't think of what.. It's like a Roller coaster. But The time off has been fun, and well needed. I get to go back just in time for Parent Teacher Conferences... Yahoo! What a party!

I've been dreaming of a True Loves Kiss!

OK so here is how lame i am.... Day one of being off track and what am i doing? Laundry... while watching ENCHANTED!!! ALONE! Super exciting i know. But it makes me think... Ya know, i really have been dreaming of a true loves kiss. But then it gets me wondering whether that is really possible? What makes happiness, and how do you find it? You would think at 24 i would have life a LITTLE figured out. Most people in Utah have multiple kids by 24. Or at least a somewhat successful relationship, or even friendships for goodness sake!~. But here i am moving every six months, trying to find my place in the world. The only thing i do have figured out is my job. And even then i still question that once in awhile too. It just seems like life is full of never ending tests. And just as soon as you think you have it figured out and you understand, it totally changes. I think even people that are married, don't always know what makes them happy. Some people think once you find that person, life just magically changes. But i know from experience that life isn't automatically easier when you get married. Sometimes it's even harder. I think everyone is given different challenges at different stages in life. But somewhere there is sunshine and light. You just have to find it. SO i am officially on my journey for happiness. Who knows where it will lead me, maybe i will move again, maybe i will switch jobs, find new friends, or find a new relationship. Maybe even just a hobby. I am not sure yet... But I've got plenty of time to figure it out. Wish me luck?

Counting down the days!!

OK so i am totally counting down the days until i go off track. I officially only have to wake up two more mornings, and go to 1 and 1/2 days of school before i get a break!!! A much needed and deserved break. Luckily I am feeling a little better and pushing a long one day at a time. But I do have to say I HATE snow. Ok, hate is a strong word i don't hate it, i just hate driving in it and wondering if everyone else is being careful too.. I think snow looks nice, i am not fond of being cold but i can deal with it because i love wearing hoodies and bundling up in blankets! But i dislike driving in snow and for that fact alone i hate waking up to see snow on the ground.

I am grateful however, that this time around i found a place to live with a garage, so i don't have to wake up early to trudge through the snow to clean my car off!!! So that is AMAZINGLY AWESOME!!! So i might just survive this winter after all!!!