Back to School....

Well, it has come.... The return to school. Ya know going off track is so interesting, I love the time off, but it takes almost a week to get in the swing of relaxing and taking care of stuff that has been neglected while i teach, then i enjoy the second week and by the time the third and last week comes along, i have a panic attack anxious that i have to go back to school. It is a weird block of time. And then it is 9 weeks of teaching, like nothing happened and we do it all again. School is interesting, i switched schools so i could keep teaching 6th grade, and now i am at the same roadblock yet again i get to switch grades next year. I think i will end up teaching 3rd or 4th. But i am not sure. They never know until later which makes it hard to plan and get ready. But i have to go with the flow. I am excited that i only have a year left of my master's program, and at the end of this year i will officially have my level 2 teaching license. It will be great to start year 4 of teaching! I will no longer be a provisional teacher!!! It's serious now... haha Anyway i am taking a whole bunch of classes and working with district people to nail down classroom management and other issues in the classroom. I am also reading a lot of books about being able to stand up for myself and be assertive and say NO without feeling guilty. I think it will really be beneficial. I apparently have the "disease to please" and just want to make everyone else happy before i focus on myself or my needs. I think that if i stick with it i will be able to really make a difference in my life. I hope. I just need to be more confident and positive. There are always things i want to work on, but they seem to get lost in the shuffle of things, but this time i really want to make it happen. I want to be a better person, share openly, not be so selfish. I want to be proud of my accomplishments, i want to be happy with myself. I think it is interesting to look at happiness. It really is a state of mind, not an accomplishment or something you achieve. It is a choice. And i want to make it a more frequent choice in my life.

What teachers make.....

I will admit, that occasionally i have to watch this video to remember why i am a teacher....

Super weekend full of.... school? Yikes!

Ok so i am taking classes for my masters degree, and seriously what an awesome weekend of class! Yuck! I have class every other weekend Friday nights and all day Saturday. What an awesome way to spend my weekend. But the other weekends aren't too exciting either. I will just be glad when i have made it through and gotten to the end. My classes are fun and beneficial, dont get me wrong it's just lame that i have nothing better to do.

And my mom is back in the hospital with pneumonia. It is sad how sick she gets so often. And my dad is in Reno for his regional baseball meeting, so I am doing what i can to help out.

I am still living the up and down roller coaster of my relationship.... Not strong enough to jump either way. And i feel like life is just kind of standing still. I hope that i will find light again soon and make progress instead of standing at a stand still...

Other than that i am dreading my birthday this week. I will be 25 and only getting older! Maybe i will write again telling you all how old and lame i am hahaha. That would be exciting! I am not really doing much for my birthday. Maybe i will go visit my sister, seeing as it is her birthday too!!

Anyway another lame day to check off the calendar.

YOURS TRULY,
WAITING FOR AN ADVENTURE

New day, new life... NEW HAIR

Lots of new things have happened. I got a new hair cut! My sister moved into a new house. And i am on a new journey in life. I am loving the break from school, trying to catch up on everything. I am still sick... it seems like a never ending battle, but thats ok. I am trying to turn my life around, exercise more, eat right, make better choices in life. Basically find my way back to me again... Hope it works! Anyway i haven't posted in awhile cuz i couldn't really see the point of posting to no one.... it is almost like talking to myself online, but I had to post this picture of my nephews and my niece, they are my love!!! PLUS i get to show off my new hair cut! Enjoy life!