Positive Day Number One!

OK well first of all Yippee for me! I had a great day! The weather was nice, coulda been a little warmer, but i will take it! Then i had a day all about me! I figured after all the ups and downs and turn arounds that have been happening and with it being one of my last days off track before i go back to school on Friday, i decided it should be my day. I went and had Jodelle do my hair, which was super awesome cuz she is one of my favorite people in the world! So that makes it fun, she always makes me feel better and talks to me and totally understands my life and my situations, and who doesn't love having their hair cut and highlighted and styled? It was awesome! Very relaxing, then i went shopping with my sister. I bought a couple of pairs of new capris and a cute shirt to go with it! Then i bought some super cute flip flops that I added gems to make flowers on them they turned out way cute! SO i shopped and i crafted WHOA! Then i played some super fun games with my Sister and Brother in Law. Nothing beats a few rounds of Settlers of Catan, AND Ticket to Ride! It was great! I also got to play with my niece and my nephews they make me laugh i love those guys so much! Today was all about the smiles, being positive, doing what makes me happy, what i enjoy. I didn't talk to anyone that i didn't want to talk to, (Not to say they didn't call... i just didn't answer...) I was being selfish. I wanted to feel special and remember that i am important. I wanted to jump start my self-esteem and what better way to do it then to get my hair done and buy a cute out fit? I also ate good food and had good company! I couldn't have asked for a better day!!

I did do something for someone else today though too, I sent my mom flowers for an early mothers day thank you for all that she does! I thought i could share some light in her day too! Thanks mom for all you do! And thanks to all of you too, because i know that if you are reading this, you are probably one of the few that care to keep up to date with me and continue to support me. It is because of you that i can do what i do. I love the support and love i get from my friends and family. You guys are the best!

Cheers to being positive!

Welcome to my life!

My theme song for life totally! I love this song! music makes me happy!

When do you believe?

Ok so my recent dilemma is when do you believe what someone says, when they themselves don't follow through with it? I will 100% admit that i am sure that i am at fault of this as well, but if someone says something don't you want to have enough faith in human kind to believe them? i don't care if what they are saying is good or bad, or a promise that they will be somewhere or do something. If you say something.... FOLLOW THROUGH! I used to be so reliable. If i committed to do something, not only would i be there but i would be 5 minutes early!! I get that things come up and stuff happens, but that is different then just being a flake or holding out just in case "something better" comes along. But if you tell someone never to talk to you again.... why would you call them?? If before you'd never agree to do anything with them but as soon as it is over between you that's when you want to see them, why would you ask them to come over?? It's like words mean nothing...

I still try to be true to my word, but the one thing i can't seem to stick to is saying NO. I have a disease to please. My heart literally aches if i have to say No. i would rearrange my schedule if i could to help anyone out. i don't know why, it is such a driving force. It is kind of a poison in the same sense. Sometimes i need to remember to think of myself too and what i need. it's not always about everyone else.

Anyway my goal is to A: be true to my word, and if i say something i am sticking to it!! and B: Remember that it is ok to say No some of the time.. and it is ok to take care of myself and remember what i need or want too!

I hate boys!!!

I hate BOYS!!!~
********Warning this is going to be a rant and rave about why boys suck, if that offends you stop reading now!***************

I am officially on strike. I give up trying to have a successful relationship. I swear it doesn't matter what you do, it is never right. Are relationships really supposed to be that hard? What ever happened to boys respecting who you are and making you feel like a princess? I used to have faith and hope in Love. But all it really has done is been hard. It brings me pain and sorrow time after time, and somehow they always find a way to blame me for the mess. I must be pretty messed up because The same thing always happens, I try to be nice and loving and considerate and really just me, and i get walked on. I get used and abused, and thrown out with the trash. It is ridiculous. If that is what a relationship is all about I am officially declaring my nun-hood now!

Tag! I'm it!!!!!

List 6 unimportant things that make you happy.

OK, so i was tagged by Nicole... And really she stole all of the good ones, because who doesn't LOVE LOVE LOVE rain? and LONDON! I mean come on now, there is something so peaceful and amazing about rain. I could just sit in the rain and be so refreshed and happy. It is the most amazing thing ever!! And I love to laugh too, although sadly i haven't been able to do it as much as i would like to lately. I also like making other people laugh. Even if it means i am being crazy again. You should just read her post to see what else she said. But Lauren took some of the good ones too, shopping, taking pictures, blogging, and Music!!! I really do find peace in music it is such an expression of emotion and beauty! It is life in a song, what better way to explain this crazy life then with a song!?!?

Anyway it would be no fun if we all just said the same things, So i tried to pick new ones, that weren't already mentioned, but i had to borrow a few ideas because they are really the heart and sole of Alisha! so here it goes......



1. Dr. Pepper.... (And No Nicole i did not steal this from you,) sadly i live and die for Dr. Pepper, although i don't drink that much of it, (But still probably too much) when i do get some it is like instant perma-smile. It is happiness in a can for sure!

2. Purses, sheets, blankets, (OK so I may have a problem with shopping in general). Which is funny, because I never used to like shopping. When i was younger, even in high school i was never really a mall goer, or a shopper, it wasn't something i liked to do that much. I didn't want to spend my money. But now it is like therapy. It doesn't matter what i am buying, or if it is one dollar or ten dollars, there is something invigorating about getting something new. Sometimes i dont even know what i am doing at a store, but if i am sad, I somehow end up at a store, and
it usually makes me feel better... Even if i just end up buying orange juice or something silly. And i really like to get new sheets for my bed, or a new blanket to cuddle up with, and who doesn't need a new purse now and then?

3. American Idol... Yes i know PATHETIC, but i really really like this show. I love music and reality TV so it is a perfect match... But I do have to admit that i should probably just put this one down for REALITY TV cuz for some reason some of my favorite shows are all stupid reality tv shows like American Idol, Dancing with the Stars, The Amazing race, The Apprentice, The Bachelor, and probably more silly shows too... There is something about sitting back and listening to the craziness of competitions that are so out there!

4. Reading.... I love picking up a good book at night and just reading and reading. Getting lost in a story, or learning something new. It is addicting.

5. The ZOO.... I love the zoo? I know I know, I am 25 get over it, it never really changes, but I love it! When i went to California my favorite happiest day EVER was going to the San Diego Zoo It was amazing!!! I like Sea world too, but not as much fun as the zoo. I just love animals. It is so fascinating to watch them, and i love walking outside and just yeah, gosh i am smiling just thinking about it! I even love Utah's simple Hoggle Zoo... It is great too! I wish we could have a bigger one, but i will keep it!

6.Flip Flops.... My favorite moment in time was when i lived in St. George and i could literally wear flip flops all year long! Ok yes i was walking to class in a sweatshirt and flip flops in the winter, but hey i loved it! I love hoodie sweatshirts too, which kinda condradicts my flip flop addiction, but you can wear both at the same time it's really ok! I just love painting my toe nails and having them all cute and slipping on flip flops to go out the door. They are so versatile and can be worn anywhere! It is a good day when the snow is leaving and its safe to wear flip flops without sliding around on the wet ground! =)

Now I must tag 6 people, SO although ALL of you are invited to do this, here's my list of 6..
1. Daija
2. Lisa
3. RoseAnne
4. Shalise
5. Chris
6. Jessica F.

The Unknown.....

Have you ever wanted to do something.... But you are afraid? So afraid, that you really end up doing nothing? Which is probably the exact opposite of what you should do, or even what you WANT to do! I think it is the fear of the unknown... Just not knowing what will come next, or what will happen if you do it, or maybe even what will happen if you DON'T do it.

Well, that is where i am at. I am right in the middle, one minute i am pretty sure i know exactly what i am going to do, the next i am just as confused as ever. And one minute i am thinking about one decision, and all of a sudden i am way off thinking about something else? Because of course everything in life is so interconnected.

So as i sit i am pondering my options, when in reality it just delays the inevitable. Oh how i wish i had a magic eight ball, then i would know the answers to all of my questions!!!!.... Except of course when it tells me to "ask again later"....

Amazing Weather!

Finally a gorgeous day!!! I can not believe how beautiful today was! Definitely the best time of the year...

You will be happy to know project "sleep in" has been glorious! Official day one of being off track and i finally got to sleep in! The weekend was rough my body wanted to get up before 8 and that was just NOT going to work for me! But after a glorious sunday nap and staying up super late last night, i successfully slept in today! Unfortunately I have to substitute for my friend Jessica tomorrow, so i am going to confuse my body again by getting up early and going to work!~ And the bad news, is i only get TWO weeks off this time so it is a short break, good news once i go back to school we only have 9 weeks left of school! This year has gone by so fast i can't believe it! Then it is on to 3rd grade!!

I have officially ran out of good books to read, anyone have any suggestions??

For you? Or for me?

DO i really blog for you?

Why, So that you can read the exciting things happening in my boring life? So you can celebrate my happy times, and cry with me in time of need? And worry with me when i am worried? Probably not, since i know they are not that exciting to many of you, since you don't comment or reply. Heck, maybe your not even reading this?

I think i do it for me....

Is it a source of excitement to relieve my boredom? Maybe, Something to make me feel important, like you all really care what is going on and what i am writing about... Possibly. An outlet that makes me feel not so alone? Most definitely. It is a chance for me to write, to share, to explode my emotions, thoughts, and sometimes my feelings. It is an escape for me, an outlet. A harbor of safety. No one is judging me, and if you are, i don't have to know about it. It is a chance for me to just be me, and thats ok.

I May not have a family, or kids to share pictures of, and cute stories. I don't even have fun adventures, or cool vacations to talk about... But I have the ins and outs of me.. and well that's just all i have to give, but i will freely give it to you if you want to take it!

So just know that maybe this post is not exciting, maybe it is not chuck full of information and announcements... But Maybe it is more for me than you, and your comments add to the meaning and worth of each post. When people comment, i feel like they really care, like they really read it, and that they understand what i am going through, or what i was trying to say. Like they really get me. Like i am not alone.why

3rd Grade?!?!

Well it is official. I am going to be teaching THIRD grade next year!? How do i feel about that some might ask.... I am not sure? It will be a new adventure that is for sure. I have successfully survived 3 years in 6th grade and loved it. So i am ready to try a younger grade to see how they compare. Some of you may think 6th grade is awful and that a new grade is wonderful, I however LOVE 6th grade and have had so many memories and lessons learned since i started teaching. But year 4 is a great year to start something new. I am moving up.... or down? And i hear the little kids worship their teachers, so i may have some new fans.. Ha we will see. I am not sure i can be sweet enough for 8 year olds, but they will be 9 by the end of the year, so maybe by then i will be nice and more knowledgeable about what to do with them? In order to get prepared i started reading a book called "32 third graders and one class bunny." It is not just about third grade, it is about teaching in general but i thought it was a good place to start. I also went out and started buying books and resources for third grade.... I was excited to figure out what i was going to teach! So that's right, the planning begins and i get to start over developing a plan and classroom curriculum, which means more hard work! But more new adventures come from hard work... Look for more stories as i prepare for my new journey~

OH and HAPPY EASTER!

Don't worry be HAPPY!

Ok so i have made a personal goal to try to be more positive.... Needless to say that is super tough for me! Everything is up in the air and stressful, as usual. But i really believe that there is a strong power in positive thinking, so i am just trying to dance away and think of the great things i am blessed with instead of stressing myself sick about everything. My favorite saying has become my motto for life... "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain."